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Day 188: Speak vs. Scream
Never bite ur tongue whn what u hv to say is the truth.
Never speak quietly if someone needs to hear what u hv to say.
Never scream if ppl are already giving u there full attention.
Never sugar coat what is easier understood clear and direct.
Never prolong a conversation by repeating things over and over.
Never call it a conversation if ur the only one talking. (that’s a monologue)
Never scream when it’s time to speak.
And never speak when it’s time to scream.
Rndm words to recap my day. I find thatist arguments are a waste of
time. You can disagree without fighting. You can make both views of a
disagreement clear without shutting the other person out. If we choose
to listen… Really listen… Less time will b spent discussing what
went wrong. Never become that person who only acknowledges the wrong.
No one kicks that person. Rather b the one who is thankful for what is
right and hopeful for what can be changed starting with themselves
first. Never expect anything to be different if ur not willing to
change what your adding to the situation.
Praying for lighter hearts, easier conversations, less hesitation,
more full honesty, and receptive ears. In Jesus name.
Thanks for reading! ((officially Cali bound))

Day 187: Going vs. Going vs. Gone

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DAY 184: Looking vs. Watching
Wow… Today was amazing bcuz I met my newest 4month old godson Alec (aka TumTum) for the first time.

Thinking abt the challenge and the role of being a godmother and the reality of the influence I have in my godchildrens lives got me to thinking. Children learn by mimicing what they see. They learn to speak by watching u talk. They learn to discriminate by looking at us act differently towards others due to our own prejudices and close-minded ideas. I’m not saying we should hide our trueselves to prevent others (especially children) pickup on our bad habits. I simply think the challenge becomes having those looking at you and watching what you do actually see you struggle or fight or win or succeed. Let them see the drive that makes it easier for you to press forward when things fall apart. Let them see the light shining from you regardless of the weather or situation. Let them see your consistency in professing what you believe. Let them see your heart. That way if there is a lessoned to be learned by looking or should I say people watching then the people watching you will have a lot more than gossip to spread about you. Instead they will be able to spread the news that you are indeed someone who stands on what they say. Someone who follows thru. Someone who they can depend on. Someone worth truly watching.

I think that made sense lol. Welp!!! This sleep is screaming at me and threatening to file neglect charges lol. Gnite lovelies. Gracias por reading hahahaha!


GOD. FAITH. & LOVE ❤. (in that order)™
ChéLa ❤
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DAY 184: LOST VS. FOUND
All calm (deep breaths)… Spent a lovely day with my bestest friend
in charlotte nc helping her move into her new place for her new job!!
So excited abt new spaces and new places. But my journey here n the
thought of knowing of my upcoming journey cross country still has me
thinking and analyzing miniscual details abt my time at home in VA
after a long summer of working harder than ever before….
I often find myself in motion. Moving. Working. Talking. Singing.
Being in motion. ((Some view it as me being a busy-body. Some view it
as me being a budding socialite)). Nonetheless I’m always moving
quickly frm one thing to the nxt. I’ve gotten to the point where
disappointments are expected. Where lies are brushed off and life goes
on. Everyone says sticks & stones may break bones but we know words
can hurt most of all. The weird thing is that to an extent I’ve built
this shell where ppl attempt to hurt me and are unsuccessful bcuz I
could care less. It’s a weird place to be mentally. It’s like… I’m
running away from reality sometimes. Like I’m lost in this alternative
world where things like lies and betrayal really don’t affect me. But
I don’t think that’s the place where ppl survive. Emotions are a part
of our being. We must feel to know that we are alive. And I love
simply feeling alive. Soooooo as I close my eyes in this haze I pray
that when I awake I feel even more alive than today. If I’m running
away from something I pray I turn around and face it in the morning.
If this is what it feels like to be lost I pray in the morning I’m
found. Found in my normal state of mind. Found in my normal sunny
outlook on life.
I’m being completely transperent. I hope it pushes you to do the same.
((trust me it’s not easy to hit send on this but god gave me the
courage to write it so I must hv the courage to hit send))….enjoy.
GOD. FAITH. & LOVE ❤. (in that order)™
ChéLa ❤
((sent from my iPhone))

Day 183.24: Selfish vs. Selfless vs. Self
After a bit of sleep I want to add a few thoughts to my blog last
night since I’ve had time to calm down and reflect a little more on my
day yesterday. It jus infuriates me to think that anyone especially
someone who has known me all my life could look at me n still say that
I am a selfish self-centered brat. Not when I give 98% of my day to
other ppl. Not when I’m always trying to mk someone else smile, feel
loved, or see the hope in every single situation. It jus frustrates
me. The commonality in the 3 words selfish selfless and self is
“SELF.” no matter how much YOU give of yourself you can’t get away
from YOU. You can’t give of SOMEONE else. YOU can’t erase yourself in
any equations that are presented to you. We as conscience thinking
amazingly intelligent creatures instinctively will protect ourselves
at all times. Like unsaid before there is no selfless human creature
on this earth.
Just flushing out thoughts I wanted to record. Thanks for reading.
Pray with me for clarity. I’m beginning my 1 week journey bk west
today wit a mini south east coast much needed break. The road is the
place I feel closest to God bcuz I cn c all of the majestic things he
has created just for us to see across the country. You can expect
intense blogs with amazing pics if I figure out how to do all that frm
my phone ;)…well. Hv an awesome day! Smoochendos.
GOD. FAITH. & LOVE ❤. (in that order)™
ChéLa ❤
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DAY 183: SELFISH VS. SELFLESS

OK SO IM TIRED OF PPL TELLING ME IM SELFISH WHEN ALL I DO IS THINK OF OTHER PPL! IF YOU CANT TELL IM THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME OR HOW WHAT I DO AFFECTS YOU YOUR WRONG AND YOU NEED TO OPEN YOUR EYES! YES I WAS BORN INTO A FAMILY WHERE I HAVE A STABLE AND SOLID PROVIDER. YES IVE BEEN KNOWN TO GET MY WAY NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCES. BUT NO I DO NOT LIVE IN A CRYSTAL BALL. NO I DO NOT THINK THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND ME. NO I DO NOT CONSIDER MYSELF TO BE SELFISH. INSECURE MAYBE. UNSURE AT TIMES OF COURSE. LEARNING TO BALACE EMOTIONS ALWAYS!

\ITS NOT FAIR TO CALL SOMEONE SELFISH IF THEIR CONSTANTLY THINKING OF OTHER PPL. IT IS OUR NATURE TO LOOK OUT FOR OURSELVES AT ALL TIMES. THERE IS NO ONE PERSON ON THIS GREEN EARTH OTHER THAN JESUS WHO IS SELFLESS. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU PUT OTHER PPL IN FRONT OF YOURSELF AT SOME POINT YOU MUST CONSIDER HOW YOU WILL SURVIVE.

NOBODY!

SORRY THIS WAS A REALLY ANGRY BLOG. LIKE THE 1ST PIC ABOVE IM TRYING TO GET BACK TO MY NORMAL HAPPY CALM BALANCE. & LIKE THE 2ND PIC SAYS IF YOU CANT HANDLE ME AT MY WORST (OR WHN IM ANGRY) YOU DEF DONT DESERVE ME @ MY BEST.

HOPE YOU STILL LOVE ME. HOPE YOU WILL STILL READ…. HIT YA 2MAR WHN IM COMPLETELY CALMED DOWN!

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

DAY 182: OVERCAST VS. SUNNY SKIES

SO AMID A HECTIC DAYS… I OVERHEARD AN AMAZING CANCER SURVIVOR STORY IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMEONE ELSE SHARING THEIR EMOTIONS ABOUT THEIR OWN MOTHER’S CURRENT FIGHT WITH CANCER THAT HAD JUST COME BACK OUT OF REMISSION. AND AS I SAT NEXT TO THESE AMAZINGLY STONG LADIES I HELD BACK MY TEARS AS I BEGAN TO SILENTLY PRAY FOR THE STRENGTH OF THEM BOTH. 

AS THEIR CONVO ENDED AND MY TEARS SUBSIDED I IMMEDIATELY KNEW WHAT WOULD BE THE INSPIRATION FOR MY BLOG TONIGHT. STRENGTH….. SO HOW DOES THAT TRANSLATE TO OVERCAST VS. SUNNY SKIES YOUR ASKING YOURSELF RIGHT? WELL TODAY BEGAN AND THE SKY WAS GRAY AND ICKY AND IT WAS STICK OUTSIDE. BUT BY 3PM WHEN I FINISHED DOING ALL THAT I HAD TO DO & PREPARED TO HEAD OUT FOR THE DAY THE SKY WAS COMPLETELY BLUE, GORGEOUS AND THE WIND WAS PERFECT! AND I REALIZED THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF HOW TO BE STRONG AND KEEP YOUR FAITH.

IN TOUGH TIMES (LIKE THE LADY WITH CANCER) THE SKY MAY NOT ALWAYS APPEAR @ ITS BRIGHTEST. THE SKY MAY NOT BE ALWAYS ABLE TO HOLD BACK ITS RAIN. ON OCCASION STORMS THE WORLD DEEMS AS “ACTS OF GOD” MAY OCCUR…. BUT THERE IS ALWAYS A HINT OF HOPE BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW HARD IT STORMS, THE SUN IS ALWAYS SHINING BEHIND THE CLOUDS. SO WHEN THE CLOUDS ROLL AWAY AND THE OVERCAST MOMENT HAS PAST YOUR LEFT WITH NOTHING BUT SUNNY SKIES & SMILES & PRAISES TO GOD. 

SO IF OVERCAST= DOUBT & WORRY & SUNNY SKIES= FAITH & TRUST IN GOD WHICH WILL YOU CHOOSE TO BELIEVE? IF YOUR CURRENTLY CHECKING THE WEATHER CONDITIONS OF YOUR LIFE AND YOUR FIND THAT THERE IS A STUBBORN OVERCAST PREDICTED FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS/WEEKS/MONTHS, THEN THRY YOUR HARDEST TO REMEMBER THE SUN IS ALWAYS SHINING UNDERNEATH IT ALL… EVEN WHEN MIDNIGHT FALLS AND THE MOON SITS HIGH IN THE SKY THERE IS STILL EVIDENCE THE SUN IS SHINING. IF YOU CAN SEE THE MOON YOU KNOW THE SUN IS SHINING BECAUSE IT IS ONLY VISIBLE DO TO THE SUNLIGHTS REFLECTION OFF OF IT.

SORRY IF IT WAS HARD TO FOLLOW. IM RATHER EXHAUSTED & HV TO PACK FOR THE BEGINNING OF MY EAST COAST - CROSS COUNTRY RD TRIP STARTING IN 28 HOURS OR SO…. SO GNITE MY LOVELIES….. WORDS CAN NOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO HAVE YOU SIMPLY READING.

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (IN THAT ORDER)

ChéLa 

RIGHT DAY 181: RIGHT VS. LEFT

AND IF ALL ELSE FAILS… STAND STILL & PUSH THE HELP BUTTON OR GO DIAGONAL LOL.

**THERES A REVELATION HERE IF U THINK ABT IT LONG ENUFF HAHA… LETS C WHAT U COME UP WITH ^_^**

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa

DAY 180: SPEAKING VS. HEARING

IF YOUR TALKING ITS RLLY HARD TO HEAR

BUT IF YOUR LISTENING YOU WILL KNOW EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY

IF YOUR LOOKING TO HARD YOU MAY NOT HEAR WHATS GOIN ON AROUND YOU… BUT IF YOU LISTEN HARD ENOUGH YOU WILL KNOW JUST WHERE EACH SOUND IS COMING FROM

TALK BUT ALWAYS LISTEN. LISTEN BUT ALWAYS LOOK. LOOK BUT ALWAYS MAKE SURE YOUR WATCHING AND HEARING WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND YOU. NO MATTER WHAT THE ORDER THE GOAL IS TO FIND THE APPROPRIATE BALANCE.

IF YOU CAN DO THIS…. YOU’LL BE SURPRISED HOW MUCH EASIER YOUR CONVERSATIONS WILL BE.

THANKS FOR READING. (lemme kno what u think)

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

DAY 179: MISSING VS. MISSED

OFTEN I SAY TO PPL “I MISS U” BUT FOR SOME REASON TODAY I BEGAN TO ASK MYSELF WHY? WHAT DO I MISS ABT THS PERSON. IS SOMETHING IN MY LIFE LEFT INCOMPLETE WHN THEY ARE APART FRM ME? MEANING IM NOT WHOLE W/O THEM AROUND? AND I CONTENT WITH FINDING PERFECT HAPPINESS BY MYSELF FOR RIGHT NOW?? SOOO MANY RNDM THOUGHTS. AND I WAS TRULY PRAYING THAT SOMETHING ELSE WOULD POP INTO MY HEAD 2 WRITE ABT B4 THE NIGHT ENDED BUT I GUESS GOD RLLY WANTS ME TO DIGEST THIS…. SO I FIND MYSELF QUESTIONING THE THOUGHT OF MISSING VS. MISSED. IVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT SOMEONE ALWAYS WANTS TO FEEL THOUGHT ABT WHEN THEY ARE GONE SO WE OFTEN TELL THEM WE MISSED THEM WHILE THEY WERE AWAY EVEN IF IN ALL HONESTY WE KNOW WE NEEDED THE BREAK. I DONT THINK  A QUICK PASSING THOUGHT OF SOMEONE CONSTITUTES TRULY MISSING SOMEONE. BUT I WILL AGREE THAT IF THIS IS SOMEONE WHO ADDS POSITIVE THINGS TO YOUR LIFE EACH AND EVERY TIME YOU SEE THEM OR ARE AROUND THEM THEN THEY CAN LEGITIMATELY BE MISSED BECAUSE WHEN THEY ARE AWAY OR YOU ARE FAR APART THERE IS SOMETHING MISSING THAT COULD ADD TO YOUR CURRENT SITUATION. (WOW HOPE THAT MADE SENSE LOL)…. 

I GUESS WHAT IM SAYING IS…

IT’S NICE TO BE MISSED… BUT PAY ATTENTION TO WHATS MISSING? WHAT IS IT THAT YOU MISS ABOUT THIS PERSON PLACE OR THING YOU DESIRE? WHAT IS IT THAT THIS PERSON PLACE OR THING CAN/WILL PROVIDE FOR YOU WHEN IT OR YOU RETURNS TO ITS PRESENCE? IS IT SOMETHING YOU CAN TRULY PROVIDE YOURSELF OR IT IS AN EXCLUSIVE FEELING ONLY THIS ONE PARTICULAR BEING OR OBJECT CAN PROVIDE?

ARE YOU MISSING A PIECE OR ARE YOU MISSING YOUR PEACE? 

ARE YOU MISSING THEM OR ARE YOU MISSING YOU? 

ARE YOU MISSING OR ARE YOU MISSED?

IS WHATS MISSING REALLY THE ANSWER OR IS THE ANSWER WHATS MISSING?

THOUGHTS TO THINK ABOUT…

PS- I MISS U BUT IM PERFECTLY FINE FINDING OUT WHATS MISSING ^_^

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

DAY 178: RISK VS. CHANCE

WHETHER U CALL IT RISK OR CHANCE TAKE EVERY OPPORTUNITY TO GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS WHEN IT’S PRESENTED. YOU NEVER KNOW WHICH NANOSECOND CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE YOUR FUTURE YOUR HEALTH YOU FAVOR :)…  EVERY CHANCE IN THE WORLD YIELDS A RISK. YOU DECIDE TO TAKE IT TO RUN WITH IT TO FLY ON IT’S WINGS TO SOAR ON ITS POSSIBILITIES OR TO STAY GROUNDED AND LET EVERYONE ELSE PASS U BY. 

WHICH SHALL IT BE? ARE YOU FEELING RISKY? lol

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE ❤. (in that order)™
ChéLa

DAY 177: TO DO VS. TO NOT DO

YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO. YOU KNOW  WHAT IS RIGHT. AVOID WHAT IS WRONG. AND SIMPLY DONT DO THOSE THINGS. CHALLENGE YOURSELF. PUSH YOURSELF. THE CHOICE IS YOURS. SO ARE THE CONSEQUENCES. WHICH WILL YOU CHOOSE?

**HOPE THIS GOT YOU THINKING**

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

ps- i hear im awesome how abt you?? lol

DAY 176: RISING VS. CLIMBING

JOB 12:23 “HE MAKES NATIONS RISE & THEN FALL, BUILDS UP SOME & ABANDONS OTHERS.”

EPHESIANS 4:10 “AND THE ONE WHO CLIMBED DOWN IS THE ONE WHO CLIMBED BACK UP, UP TO THE HIGHEST HEAVEN. HE HANDED OUT GIFTS ABOVE AND BELOW…”

WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN. BUT IF YOUR DOWN THERE’S ALWAYS A WAY UP. THE DIFFERENCE BTW RISING & CLIMBING IS THAT WHEN YOUR RISING YOUR MOVING UP FROM ONE PLACE TO ANOTHER WITH OR WITHOUT MUCH EFFORT. WHEN YOUR CLIMBING YOUR PAYING ATTENTION TO ALL YOUR SURROUNDINGS AND CAREFULLY POSITIONING EACH AND EVERY MOVE YOU MAKE SO THAT YOU WONT FALL ON YOUR WAY UP. SIMLE WORDS, MAJOR DIFFERENCES. I’D LIKE TO THINK IM CLIMBING AND NOT RISING. I’D LIKE TO IMAGINE THAT WHEN I REACH THE TOP OR MY NEXT PITSTOP ILL BE ABLE TO ACCOUNT FOR EACH AND EVERY STEP IVE MADE ALONG THE WAY. EACH HOPE, EACH DREAM, & EACH WISH I MAKE IS A STEP TOWARDS SOMETHING. IM NOT SAYING THAT I DONT EXPECT SOME SLIPS OR EVEN A FEW FALLS, BUT I DO EXPECT NOT TO GROW WEARY ON THE CLIMB. SUCCESS IS ACKNOWLEDGING EACH BIT OF PROGRESS.

HERE’S TO SUCCESS. MINES AND YOURS. HERE’S TO CLIMBING AND NOT SIMPLY RISING. HERE’S TO GAINING MORE KNOWLEDGE TO CONTINUE TO PRESS ON. AND HERE’S TO A JOURNEY THATS EASIER THAN THOSE THAT HAVE JOURNEYED BEFOR US. THIS IS MY PRAYER FOR ME AND FOR YOU.

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

DAY 175: LETTING GO VS. LETTING IN

IT’S OFTEN SAID YOU HAVE TO LET THINGS (OR PEOPLE) GO FOR THE BEST. WHICH I BELIEVE IS TRUE. BUT WHAT ABOUT LETTING OTHER PEOPLE (OR THINGS) IN? IT’S MUCH EASIER TO SHUT OUT THE WORLD THAN IT IS TO ALLOW THE ENTIRE WORLD ACCESS TO YOU AND YOUR HEART. ALTHOU YOUR HEART (OR YOUR TRUE BEING) ISNT PUBLIC ACCESS IT IS SOMETHING THAT YOU HAVE THE POWER TO SHARE WITH OTHERS.

TO MAKE ROOM FOR SOMETHING NEW YOU MUST REMOVE THE OLD DEAD THINGS IN YOUR LIFE. AND ALTHOU YOU CLEAR NEW SPACE YOU MAY NOT THROW AWAY THESE OLD THINGS. AND IF THIS IS THE CASE KNO THAT THESE THINGS ARE IN USE FOR A REASON. SOMETHINGS NEED TO BE REPLACED. SOME PPL NEED TO BE REPLACED. SOME SITUATIONS ND TO BE REPLACED. LET GO OF THE OLD AND LET IN SOMETHING NEW. BE SPONTANEOUS. BE ADVENTUROUS. MAKE NEW MISTAKES AND LEARN FROM EACH ONE. THE POINT IS TO CREATE SOMETHING FRESH & NEW.
ALTHOU A PLAN CAN COME IN HANDY, FOLLOWING YOUR HEART CAN LEAD YOU TO YOUR DESTINY. PRAYING THAT YOU LET GO OF WHATS HOLDING YOU BACK & THAT YOU EMBRACE WHATS NEW BY LETTING IT IN TO FILL THE EMPTY SPACES TO REMOVE THE PAIN FROM YOUR PAST AND TO HELP PUSH YOU ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE LIFE THAT IS WAITING.





GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa 

DAY 174: SIT VS. SWIM

Seventy-five percent of our planet is water - can you swim?  ~Author Unknown

IM LEARNING TO SWIM WITH NO HELP FROM ANYONE. NO FLOATATION DEVICES. NO ASSISTANCE. LETTING GO OF THE FEARS OF NEVER REACHING THE SHORE. GETTING OFF THE SHORE OUT OF MY SEAT INTO MY SUIT INTO THE OCEAN READY TO SWIM READY TO BE AT SEA. READY FOR THE WORD TO NOTICE I CREATED THIS PATH JUST FOR ME.
WILL YOU FOLLOW? OR SHOULD I SAY WHO SHALL YOU LEAD? SITTING OR SWIMMING? I’M NOT LETTING YOU DEVIDE FOR ME :)
JUST A FEW LINES THAT HAPPN TO RHYME FRM MY HEART TO URS… THNKX FOR READING



GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa

DAY 173: FORGIVEN VS. FORGOTTEN

1 KINGS 8:50-51 “FORGIVE YOUR PEOPLE WHO HAVE SINNED AGAINST YOU; FORGIVE THEIR GROS REBELLIONS AND MOVE THEIR CAPTORS TO TREAT THEM W/COMPASSION. THEY ARE, AFTER ALL, YOUR PEOPLE AND YOUR PRECIOUS INHERITANCE WHOM YOU RESCUED FROM THE HEART OF THAT IRON-SMELTING FURNACE, EYGPT.”
ISAIAH 65:17 “PAY CLOSE ATTN NOW: I’M CREATING NEW HEAVENS AND A NEW EARTH. ALL THE EARLIER TROUBLES, CHAOS, & PAIN ARE THINGS OF THE PAST, TO BE FORGOTTEN.”
SO IT’S OFTEN SAID IT’S IN THE PAST LET IT GO. FORGET THE THINGS BEHIND YOU. MOVING ON MEANS LEAVING THINGS AND EXTRA BAGGAGE BEHIND. THERE’S A FACADE THAT SAYS GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN AND FORGIVE BUT DONT FORGET. IDK WHY THIS IS THE TOPIC ON MY HEART TONIGHT BUT IM TORN BTW THE THOUGHT OF FORGIVENESS & FORGETTING. 
IF I CHOSE TO FORGET THEN WHERE IS THE LESSON LEARNED? BUT IF I CHOOSE TO FORGIVE AND REMEMBER WHATS BEEN FORGIVEN THEN THERE IS A CLEAR RECORD ON BOTH ACCORDS SHOWING THAT I HAVE OVERCOME WHATEVER PAST HURT OR WRONG WAS CAUSED TOWARDS ME. BUT IF I FORGET ABOUT IT AND THAT PERSON OR THING FORGETS THEN WHAT WAS TRULY ACCOMPLISHED? IM SURE THERE ARE MANY THINGS IN LIFE WE HAVE FORGOTTEN (WHETHER INTENTIONAL OR NOT)…. BUT I THINK FORGIVENESS IS THE GREATER OF THE 2. 
A wise man will make haste to forgive, because he knows the true value of time, and will not suffer it to pass away in unnecessary pain. 


~Samuel Johnson 
A personal offense is like a scratch on a phonograph record. I couldn’t move my thoughts beyond my pain. It kept repeating, as if I were stuck within its grooves. There was only one way to play beyond it. I had to forgive them, so my heart could take its form again. 


~Laurel Lee 
Can you really forgive if you can’t forget? 


~Sarah Jessica Parker 
TONIGHTS PRAYER: A HEART THAT FORGIVES. LORD GIVE US YOUR HEART TO FORGIVE. SOMETIMES THERE ARE THINGS OUT OF OUR CONTROL. PAIN THAT WE CANT SEE COMING. HURT THAT RUNS DEEPER THAN WE WILL ALLOW OURSELVES TO BELIEVE. GOD SHOW US THE TRUE MEANING BEHIND FORGIVENESS. YOU SENT YOUR FLESH AND BLOOD TO DIE FOR OUR SINS TO FORGIVE US IN ADVANCE. HEP US TO LEARN TO FORGIVE IN ADVANCE. BEFORE THE PAIN AND HURT OCCURS. HELP US NOT TO EXPECT THAT PAIN & HURT BUT TO KNOW THAT IT’S A NATURAL PART OF LIFE AND GET OVER IT SOONER RATHER THAN LATER WHEN IT OCCURS. LORD MAKE US MORE LIKE YOU. THE CREATOR THE DREAMER THE ENDER. THE AUTHOR OF THE WORD FORGIVE. HELP US TO FORGIVE. MOST OF ALL LORD, HELP US FORGIVE OURSELVES.  THIS IS MY PRAYER. AMEN.
I’D RATHER YOU FORGIVE ME THAN FORGET ME BCUZ I’D LIKE TO IMAGINE IM SOMEWHAT UNFORGETTABLE






GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa 
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GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa 

DAY 172: LOVE VS. ME

OHMYLANTA…. SO I JUST GOT BACK FROM SEEING EAT. PRAY. LOVE. HANDS DOWN BEST MOTIVATIONAL MOVIE OF 2010! SOOOOOO INSPIRED! IF ANYONE WANTS TO GET ME A GIFT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAKE IT THE SCREENPLAY OF THIS MOVIE. NOT NECESSARILY THE BOOK BUT THE SCREENPLAY WAS AMAZING! AND IF YOU CAN CONVINCE ME THE BOOK IS BETTER I SWEAR ILL READ IT LOL… BUT MOVING ALONG…. HERE ARE A FEW MAGNIFICENT QUOTES THAT STOOD OUT TO ME THE MOST (W/ MY COMMENTS IN BETWEEN)

“I FEEL FEAR BECAUSE FOR THE 1ST TIME IM AFRAID THE PERSON NEXT TO ME WILL WANT TO LEAVE.” EVERYONE IS AFRAID OF SOMETHING. BUT IF YOU FOLLOW YOUR FEARS YOU MIGHT BUMP INTO SOMETHING AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL THAT COULD CHANGE YOUR WORLD FOR MORE THAN THE BETTER. IT COULD SIMPLY BE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN ASKING GOD FOR. SO TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH. AND DONT LOOK BACK OR DOWN. GOD WILL MAKE SURE YOU DONT FALL.

“RUIN IS A GIFT. RUIN IS THE ROAD TO TRANSFORMATION.” THE HARDER YOU FALL SOMETIMES, THE MORE BROKEN THINGS ARE, THE MORE BEAUTIFUL THEY WILL BE REBUILT, STRONGER, CLEANER, AND READY TO HOLD THE WEIGHTS OF WHAT IS TO COME :)

“YOU WANT TO GET TO THE CASTLE? YOU GOT TO SWIN THE MOAT!” 

SOMETIMES THERE IS NO CLEAR PATH. DONT OVERLOOK THE OBVIOUS SHORTCUTS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. BUT ONLY MOVE FORWARD IF YOU KNOW GOD IS WALKING BESIDE YOU.

“IF YOU CANT CONTROL YOUR MIND YOUR IN TROUBLE BECAUSE ALL YOUR TROUBLE STARTS THERE.” ITS NOT MIND CONTROL IF YOU HAVE NO CONTROL (HAHA)

“EVENTUALLY EVERYTHING GOES AWAY!” NOTHING LASTS FOREVER… SO MAKE THIS BIT OF EVER LAST FOR SOMETHING OF SUBSTANCE.

“I THINK YOU’LL HAVE THE CAPACITY ONE DAY TO LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD.” IF YOU MOVE OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY AND CLEAR YOUR OWN MIND YOU WILL FIND LOVE IN UNEXPECTED PLACES & IT’S BEEN THERE ALL ALONG.

“GOD DWELLS WITHIN YOU AS YOU…. GOD DWELLS WITHIN ME AS ME.” THERE’S A BETTER, MORE CONFIDENT, MORE CONSCIENCE VERSION OF YOU IN THERE. FIND THAT PERSON. BE THAT PERSON. THAT PERSON IS THE GOD IN YOU. FIND YOUR YOU!

“ONLY WAY TO HEAL IS TO TRUST.” TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL THINE HEART….

“YOU DONT NEED A MAN… YOU NEED A CHAMPION.” WHEW! ((NEED I SAY MORE? LOL))

“WHEN YOU SET OUT IN THE WORLD TO HELP YOURSELF SOMETIMES YOU END UP HELPING… TUTTI (EVERYONE).” DONT TURN OFF YOUR LIGHT. NOR SHUN ATTENTION AWAY FROM THOSE AROUND YOU. YOUR ARE SOMEONE’S MISSING PUZZLE PIECE. ARE YOU READY TO BE THE RIGHT FIT?

“BALANCE IS NOT LETTING ANYONE ELSE LOVE YOU LESS THAN YOU LOVE YOURSELF.” «< SIMPLY PUT…. #AMEN ^_^

“I DO NOT NEED TO SAY I LOVE YOU TO PROVE I LOVE MYSELF.” ((BUT JUST FOR THE RECORD… I LOVE MYSELF LOL))

“TO LOSE BALANCE SOMETIMES FOR LOVE IS PART OF LIVING A BALANCED LIFE.”… EVENTUALLY… I WILL FIND THIS BALANCE

“IF YOU’RE BRAVE ENOUGH TO LEAVE BEHIND EVERYTHING FAMILIAR AND COMFORTING (WHICH CAN BE ANYTHING FROM YOUR HOUSE TO YOUR BITTER OLD RESENTMENTS) & SET OUT ON A TRUTH-SEEKING JOURNEY (EITHER EXTERNALLY OR INTERNALLY), & IF YOU ARE TRULY WILLING TO REGARD EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS TO YOU ON THAT JOURNEY AS A CLUE, AND IF YOU ACCEPT EVERYONE YOU MEET ALONG THE WAY AS A TEACHER, AND IF YOU ARE PREPARED - MOST OF ALL - TO FACE (& FORGIVE) SOME VERY DIFFICULT REALITIES ABOUT YOURSELF…. THEN TRUTH WILL NOT BE WITHHELD FROM YOU…” THE TRUTH IS THERE, THE FOG WILL SOON CLEAR, AND THEN I WILL BE STANDING, WALKING, AND LIVING IN MY DREAM COME TRUE, MY DESTINY THAT IS WAITING, AND THE FUTURE WHERE PEOPLE ARE SIMPLY WAITING FOR ME TO BE READY.

SO IN CASE YOU DIDNT CATCH ANY PERSONAL REVELATIONS IN THAT AND YOU STILL NEED A PUSH AND YOUR ASKING YOURSELF WHY I CALLED THIS BLOG LOVE VS. ME HERE’S YOUR QUICK ANSWER. I OFTEN FIND MYSELF FIGHTING OR RUNNING FROM NOT THE WORLD LOVE BUT THE STATE OF BEING IN LOVE. AND LIKE JULIA ROBERTS IN THIS MOVIE LOVE ALWAYS SEEMS TO FIND ME WHEN I LEAST EXPECT IT. IVE OFTEN BEEN LOST IN IT. BUT EVENTUALLY YOU LEARN TO BE SMART IN LOVE. YOU FOLLOW YOUR HEART AND USE YOUR HEAD & FIND THE BALANCE THAT MAKES THE RELATIONSHIP SUCCESSFUL… SO HERE’S TO NEW LOVES. NEW DREAMS. DREAMS COME TRUE.

EAT. PRAY. LOVE. (ONE OF THE BEST PHILOSOPHIES IVE EVER HEARD). IF YOU CAN I RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE! 

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)

ChéLa 

DAY 171: HOME VS. HERE





SO DOROTHY SAID “THERE’S NO PLACE LIKE HOME.” WHICH IS TRUE IF YOU KNOW WHERE YOU HOME IS AND IT FEELS LIKE HOME. I OFTEN FIND MYSELF ON THE EAST COAST MISSING THE WEST COAST AND ON THE WEST COAST DREAMING OF THE EAST. AND I ASK MYSELF WHEN WILL THIS FEEL LIKE HOME? MY LIFE FITS NEATLY INTO 5 BAGS AND 4 LARGE CARRYONS LOL INTO ONE CAR THAN CAN CARRY ME FROM EAST TO WEST AND BACK WITHOUT A HITCH. BUT I ASK MYSELF WHEN WILL I FEEL AT HOME? I DONT KNOW WHEN AND I DONT KNOW HOW. BUT I KNOW THAT HERE IS NOW! AND RIGHT NOW WHEREVER I FIND MYSELF HERE IS WHAT I NEED AT THIS MOMENT. SO HOMELESS, CRASHING WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY, FLOATING, DRIFTING, DREAMING, AND LIVING OFF FAITH I FIND MYSELF STANDING CONFIDENT IN KNOW THAT SOON I WILL BE ABLE TO SAY THIS IS MY HOME! WHN IM STANDING THERE I WILL KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THAT DRIFTING AND DREAMING IT TOOK TO GET ME THERE. THE LONG NIGHTS. THE MANY PRAYERS. AND THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED PUSH ME THERE. BUT FOR NOW…. HERE I AM… VISITING MY HOMETOWN…. KEYWORD VISITING. THIS IS NOT MY HOME ANY LONGER. THIS IS AN ECHO OF WHERE I ONCE THRIVED. NOW I FIND MYSELF FLOURISHING IN UNCHARTED TERRITORIES. UNAFRAID OF WHAT WILL COME BECAUSE I KNOW SOON AND VERY SOON I WILL BE HOME!
THANK YOU FOR READING. THIS BLOG WAS DIRECTLY FROM MY HEART AND SHARES A LOT OF WHO I REALLY AM. I HOPE MY HONESTY BLESSED YOU ENOUGH TO ADMIT YOUR OWN DOUBTS, CONVICTIONS, AND SECRETS OUTLOUD TO YOURSELF…. ITS SOMETHING AWESOME IN THE CONFESSIONS OF THINE MOUTH & MEDITATIONS OF THINE HEART RIGHT? HAHAHAHAHA
THATS ALL FOLKS! (IN MY PORKY THE PIG VOICE ^_^)


GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa 

DAY 170: BELIEF VS. UNDERSTANDING

SO MY BESTEST FRIEND GOT A NEW JOB & ONE OF MY FAVORITES JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO GRAD SCHOOL WHILE SOME OF MY OTHER FRIENDS ARE PRAYING FOR NEW POSITIONS, DIRECTION, AND CLARITY AS TO WHERE THEY ARE HEADED… AND MY MESSAGE TO BOTH THEM AND MYSELF ALL SUMMER LONG HAS BEEN DONT RUSH THE PROCESS GOD IS TAKING YOU THRU TO GET YOU TO THE PLACE HE WANTS YOU TO BE. IN OTHER WORDS, PATIENCE.SO TONIGHT AS I PREPARE TO REST MY HEAD BEFORE HITTING THE ROAD FROM DC TO VA 2MAR & BK TO LA IN THE COMING WKS I THINK OVER MY SUMMER AND NOTICE HOW PATIENT I TRULY WAS IN THE TASKS GOD ASSIGNED TO ME. THEN I STUMBLED ACROSS THIS QUOTE…… IT SIMPLY CONFIRMS THAT YOU NEVER BELIEVE ANYTHING JUST TO HAVE SOMETHING TO BELIVE IN. YOU BELIEVE IN THINGS YOU HAVE CONCLUDED TO BE TRUE OR FALSE. THINGS THAT YOU HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT DEEPLY AND COME TO A PERSONAL DECISION WHICH THEN TURNS INTO A CONVICTION ABOUT. NOBODY IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WILL BELIEVE IN SOMETHING THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND. SO IF IT IS UNDERSTANDING THAT YOU ARE LACKING I PRAY YOU FIND THE PATIENCE TO LEARN ABOUT WHAT IT IS YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND. I PRAY THAT WHAT YOU FIND OUT IN YOUR SEARCH DRIVES YOU TO BELIVE A LITTLE BIT MORE IN THE GOODNESS IN PEOPLE, THE CONCEPT OF WORLD PEACE (HOWEVER FAR OFF YOU BELIEVE IT MAY BE), THE POWER OF A GENUINE SMILE OR THANK YOU TO SOMEONE YOU DO NOT KNOW, THE BELIEF IN THE FACT THAT SMALL MOMENTS ARE THE BEGINNINGS OF LARGER MOVEMENTS THAT CAN NOT ONLY CHANGE YOURSELF BUT THE WORLD.
SO AS I FALL ASLEEP I AM PRAYING FOR YOU. PRAYING THAT WHAT YOU BELIEVE GROWS DEEPER. THAT WHAT YOU BELIEVE IS OPENLY SHARED WITH THOSE AROUND YOU, THOSE BEHIND YOU, AND THOSE IN FRONT OF YOU. I PRAY THAT YOU ALSO LISTEN AND RESPECT OTHERS BELIEVES AND KNOW THAT THEY ARE ENTITLED TO WHATEVER THEY CHOOSE TO BELIEVE. NOT ONE OF US WAS CREATED HIGHER THAN THE OTHER. JESUS WALKED THE SAME EARTH WE HAVE DECIDED TO TAKE SUCH POOR CARE OF. YOUR CHILDREN WILL HAVE TO BREATHE THE SAME AIR YOU ARE INHALING THIS VERY MOMENT. YOU ARE THE CATALYST FOR CHANGE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR. SO I CHALLENGE YOU TO THINK… WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN WAITING FOR? ^_^

GOD. FAITH. & LOVE (in that order)ChéLa